I believe that it can be described in a variety of ways.
- I think it is “anger turned inward”. An animosity and hatred towards the self. Self loathing, failure to like oneself or see one’s worth.
- hopelessness in living a fulfilled life.
- After that, I will attempt and describe what the root might be by analyzing my life … it is relatively complicated.
Depression = feeling helpless, that you always were, and constantly will be not able to measure up to the requirements, ideals, the life that you desire or feel you require … and that it will never ever change. More than feeling this, BEING it.
The DSM-V states:
The classic condition, “Major depressive disorder” is identified by discrete episodes of a minimum of 2 week’s by a list of symptoms and signs that need to be present in order for the medical diagnosis to be made.
Significant ones include:
– Loss of satisfaction in almost all activities.
– significant Weight gain or loss (unintentional).
– lowered cognitive function.
– Sensations of insignificance
– Marked decreased capability to choose, think, focus.
– Insomnia, hypersomnia
– Tiredness nearly all day long. Loss of energy.
I believe the root is feeling dissatisfied for whatever factor matters most to you.
A Depressive Episode when I was 16:
I was a bright student, normally high accomplishing. One year, suddenly (in challenging classes) I began doing inadequately.
I had just finished gr. 9 and went to a really challenging I.B. school. I left all my good friends, a few of which I went to school with for 10 years.
My battles there struck my core. I had no concept why I was doing poorly in some quantitative courses.
This was mainly due to job management and it triggered me extreme anxiety (( ADHD unknown at that time to me). That plus obesity, and trouble forging relationships were my very first causes of depression.
It has actually been a while (fortunately) given that I had major depression. I have ADHD and that caused a host of other issues, specifically when left without treatment for 20 plus years.
A Significant Depressive Episode that happened about 4 years after the first:
I felt my life was destroyed beyond repair Due to the mess ups, the school problems, my intelligence being squandered, time lost due to trying to assist friends that used me, gotten worse and possibly destroyed academic standing, injuring those around me, not actually knowing why, etc, etc.
I was depressed or a minimum of dysthymic, much of 16-25 or so for these factors:
– My unattended ADHD and attempting to treat what I thought was the “primary concern”, stress and anxiety, plus my damaging habits intensifying caused a great deal of pain.
– Weight problems, lonliness. Dealt with weight by18 For many part.
– Underperforming in school (ADHD)
– Struggling relationships.
– Worsened judgment on meds for stress and anxiety, which did not enable me to plainly see that a few of my “friends” were sociopaths.
– A crisis that arised from that last point.
– 4 years to fix the majority of that and individuals not understanding and believing that I didn’t try or brought it all on myself.
– In amount: Unattended ADHD, shyness, self damage, routines, seclusion were my causes (and the resulting stress and anxiety et al).
Please Note: I am not a doctor, I just play one to myself.
I believe, the response is despondence It is even more than “feeling upset, down, blue”. Life requires change. Life is modification. Depression is the deep-seated belief that one’s life (your life!!!) just can not change for the better.
I believe that worry (whether it be fear of something intangible like “failure” or something like being unaccepted) can trigger stress and anxiety disorders. They are deeply ingrained in childhood reactions. And can manifest in dependency, acting out, and seclusion.
I believe that my awful stress and anxiety ended up being complete blown major anxiety … when what I was distressed about ended up being “the truth”.
For example, if one has a worry of failure and this challenges their self-image and what they view to be their identity, then acts in ways to make this take place (or it just takes place), then that belief will enhance. If an occasion is so powerful (a “major failing”, then that stress and anxiety which makes someone have many “what-if’s” in their mind at all times … becomes more of a “I’m screwed. It will never improve. My life is destroyed.”
In basic, I think strong unfavorable difficulties to an individual’s self-concept and identity that are very difficult to see out of– become anxiety.
Stress and anxiety can end up being depression.